I Wonder...

     I wonder.  That's it, I wonder.  There are so many thoughts that go through my head every day.  These thoughts are about everything and anything. 
     I wonder when I will have time to do all of the "tasks" that need to get done around the house.  Things like laundry, dishes and dusting to even more in depth projects like cleaning out the back room, decorating the side room & getting new curtains.  I wonder what I will cook for dinner.  I wonder if dinner will taste good.  I wonder when I will have time to make sure each member of my family feels that I am 100% here for them.
     I wonder what my future will hold.  I wonder if my husband and I will have another child. I wonder if we will live in California forever.  I wonder if our son will go to college or be a rockstar.  I wonder if my son will have any children.  I wonder if he will get married.  I wonder if he will know how much his dad and I love him.  I wonder how active I will be when I'm 60. 
     I wonder if I will ever accomplish my life goals.  I have accomplished some, but I wonder if certain dreams I've had since I was a small child will one day become reality.  I wonder if I will ever publish a book.  I wonder if I will ever become a teacher.  I wonder if I will ever make a difference.
     I wonder if I will ever stop being annoyed and derailed by people.  I wonder if I will ever stop letting peoples attitudes and actions dictate my own.  I wonder if I will ever step up and completely and honestly love even the hardest ones to love; the ones who think they know everything or have to do everything and really just end up annoying everyone around them.  I wonder if I will ever stop being cynical.  I wonder if I will ever change.
   I wonder...