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Older & wiser?

It has been said as you get older you also get wiser.  Many people picture an old man with white hair and glasses as the wise man who has been through so much in his life; they imagine a person who has lived a long life and now has all of the answers. However, I clearly feel wiser now, at 34 than I did at 24. Do I believe that I have all of the answers? No - actually quite the opposite. I actually feel that wisdom isn't what you know, it's how comfortable you feel with what you don't know & realizing that really, you don't know a lot.

I used to think I knew a lot about a lot. I knew what I wanted, how I wanted it & when I wanted it. I thought I knew how much I could handle on my plate, so to speak. I'm realizing that some of the things I thought I wanted, aren't really that important in life. I'm realizing that piling so much on my plate really isn't very wise.

I once had plans for my life. I had plans of what I would do when I was a certain age; plans of what my life would be like. Plans of where I'd be living, what I'd be doing as a job, etc. However, the older I get, the more I realize plans are not mine to make. God already has a plan for me. My job is to just live daily close to Him & in time, my plan will take it's shape & be realized. I'm learning that I need to carry that thought process over into the lives of my children.  I can make all of the plans I want for them, but those plans will probably fail. My job is to love them & raise them to love Jesus. In time, He will reveal the plans He has for them...not my plans, but His.

I'm learning a lot about myself & a lot about others. I'm learning it's ok not to have all of the answers. I'm learning that people are just people & I shouldn't expect them to see everything like I see it. I'm learning to really love people for who they are & where they are, instead of expecting them to meet me where I am. I'm gaining wisdom...slowly, but I understand a little bit more about what it truly means to be wise.