So yesterday was my birthday. I remember being younger and waking up with so much excitement on my birthday, because I was another year older! Now on my birthday, I'd rather just keep sleeping when I wake up. Not that I'm afraid of getting older, but because I just really enjoy sleeping. Also, I don't really find that much excitement in the fact that I am another year older.
Birthdays are now just another day. I have a wonderful husband who tries to make the day special. Yesterday we had a great day spending time together during the afternoon, before he had to go to work. It was a fabulous day. But it could have just as well been something we did on an afternoon in June. What I mean by that is, there is no reason why the time we spent together was just for my birthday. We love each other & we love spending time together, so yesterday was just another day of us loving spending time together. He did get me some great gifts...but he actually gives me great gifts all the time. I'm lucky that way.
Anyway, what I think I'm trying to say is that now that I am 31, my birthday really just seems like another day. Actually, it made me sort of reflect on age in general. I started thinking about my age and my friends ages. I thought about how in a couple of years, I will have friends who are 50 or close to 50. That is strange to think about. I still remember when my grandma was only 55 - and I thought that was old. I started thinking about my parents age. I think about how old my parents are & how they were both younger than me when they had me. Nick brought up another thought, what must my parents feel like to have their youngest child turn 31. I hadn't even thought about how my age made anyone else feel. I asked my dad about it; he said he & my mom had talked about it that morning. They had talked about how their baby was 31, and about how old that made them feel. That made me start thinking more. I started thinking about how I will feel when my son, Aaron is an adult.
It's crazy how much thinking and reflection my 31st birthday has spawned. Maybe that's it. Maybe once you reach a certain age, 31 for me, birthdays are meant for reflection and deep thought. Maybe as an adult, birthdays are there as a reminder of who you once were, a statement of who you are now and a glimpse of who you are going to become. A day to celebrate that God has allowed you to live another year and a day to meditate on who God wants you to become.